Reflections on 2015
Welcome back to my blog! There is just one day left of 2015 and I'll be honest with you.. I am ready for a new year. This year honestly kicked my butt. It was a tough one and saying goodbye to the year is much more sweet than bitter.
2015 was full of some really tough times. There were times when I did not think that it would ever get better. This year, I questioned God so many times.
"Why is this happening to my family?"
"Why am I hurting?"
"Why can't I get a job?"
There was so much that happened this year that I didn't understand and along with that, these inner demons of things that I faced in the past came back to haunt me. Insecurities came back to mock me. Events of things that I want to forget showed up in my memory. This year, it just seemed as though nothing went right.
After asking God "why?" for so long, I decided that I needed to trust Him because he sees the bigger picture. He knows where all this fits into my life. Here I am, almost to the end of this year that I thought would last forever. I have come out stronger than ever. I have also come out of all the trials closer to Christ. I have grown in my faith and love for God.
I still don't have all the answers and I never will, but it is so comforting to know that no matter what this life throws at me, Christ is there and will never ever let me go through it alone. I have been reminded that all my sins are washed away and I am made new because of Christ. How beautiful is that? The thought of that makes me feel so beautiful. My soul is flawless. Christ looks at me and sees His beautiful child. Every time I feel insecure or unworthy, I remind myself of that. 2015 was not the easiest or best year, but I have so much to be thankful for.
I will be posting a new year's resolutions blog post once 2016 hits, so please stay tuned for that. I also have some exciting news coming up that affects this blog, as well as my Vlog channel on YouTube (if you aren't subscribed, please do! The link is on this blog). I want you to know that I am so thankful for your love and support. Thank you for reading and I hope that your New Year's celebrations are fun! Be safe. Be smart. Have fun. I will see you in 2016.